Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Subbing along...and a normal schedule

Kyle is no longer on funky shifts anymore!!! He started on Tuesday with a normal, first shift job. He had applied for another job within Micron to get off these insane 4 month shifts and had to wait almost a month to even hear anything about it. He finally got the word last week and they gave him the job. He goes into work now from about 7am-5pm (ish). The earlier he goes in, the earlier he can leave and vice versa. Today he went in super early because he woke up super early...we're talkin' 4am. He couldn't sleep. His body thinks this is a trick and all night he really didn't sleep well so he just got up around 4am and got ready for the day. Anyway, we're really happy that he's got a normal person shift and won't be a vampire any longer (although, I've got a soft place in my heart for vampires--i.e. Edward Cullen in the Twilight stories <3 ).


I'm still subbing. It's been slow but oh well. I've actually not minded that (although, less subbing=less extra money). I'm just so tired of this crap. I hate subbing. I hate being a slave to my phone (anticipating it ringing and whatnot) and a slave to the computer, constantly checking in online to see if there's a job waiting for me. I used to be compulsive and check all day, every day but now I don't care. It's almost as if I'm rebelling and not wanting to work. Maybe that's true. I'm tired of it all. I just want a constant job that gives me no choice of whether to get up for the day or not. When I was working last year, yeah, it hurt to get up early but I knew that I was having fun (most of the time) and there was a nice, constant paycheck coming for me at the end of the month. Now, my paychecks are a mere fraction of what I got--I think my effort in the subbing has lessened as well. I figure, what the heck. I don't care. I get paid peanuts now for a job well done. Why should I go above and beyond now? Most teachers don't even really care what goes on when they're not there--I know I didn't unless a major behavior problem constituted a write-up to the office. Other than that, I'd get back to my room the next day and just throw away the sub notes. I know in elementary school it's different though. Teacher has to know how far the kids got in the assignments and the progress that they made. That's a little different so I make sure to concentrate more on those assignments since I'm trapped in the classroom all day with the same kids. Gotta keep the sanity, ya know? ;) Anyway, it's just exhausting doing this day in, day out. Some substitutes do this as a retirement thing to keep them active. With as much as I've done subbing these past oh, 2.5 years or so, I don't think I'd do it again even when I'm gray. I might be willing to help out in classrooms and do the busy work but not subbing.


I applied for another random job possibility. It's with the Red Cross. It's a continuing education instructor. We'll see what happens. I'm getting that desperate that I look on the newspaper website at the classifieds and apply for jobs that I might have a small chance at hearing something. Haven't heard anything yet. But it's still posted on the site, so who knows? The recruitment specialist job with Idaho State University hasn't produced anything and I checked yesterday to see if the job was still posted and it wasn't. So, yeah. No calls, no nothin'. People are so rude now. It's an age of no communication, even though we have all the communication technology that we could want right now, it's like it's an inconvenience to talk to people. We have a friend right now that won't ever answer his phone or answer texts because it's like he prides himself on being "inaccessible". It's really frustrating.


Wow, I realize this last little bit of post was a bit of a Debbie Downer. I promise we're pretty happy right now. We're not hurting too badly and we have each other for support. That's what is important. I keep reminding Kyle that things could be a lot worse for us. We're pretty comfortable, we're able to pay bills on time, able to go out for dinner just about every weekend, able to buy clothes when we need to, etc. Yeah, in this day and age right now, those are excellent freedoms and privileges. We are extremely lucky and whenever I start to fret, I try and remember that myself. I will find something. I just have to be...um, more patient. ;)

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