I'm planning on going the whole distance (in this case, 8.5 miles) on the treadmill but my stomach starts hurting like I have to go to the bathroom so I have to stop and get off the treadmill to go...and then nothing happens. My stomach just hurts from gas, I guess..haha. Too much information? I will try again tomorrow maybe--either I'll do the other half and see how my stomach feels and if it's feeling fine, I may just try the whole distance again. If I can't go a small 8.5 mile distance, how am I ever gonna reach 13 miles?
p.s. The quote I chose for the heading seemed appropriate for everything we've done since the time we left Georgia to come out to the Northwest...The quote will probably change periodically depending on what mood I'm in or whatever we've been facing lately.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
Don't you just hate it when...?
You have a dream that opens up old sores? (I hate using that phrase because it sounds so gross but it just seemed so appropriate.) Well, I just had a dream like that early this morning. I woke up about 3am or so and couldn't go back to sleep. It was a stupid dream about the girl that got hired at Garfield. She was acting so pompous in the dream (like that's different from real life). I woke up and was angry and sad all at the same time. Why is this affecting me so badly? It's just a small position and it's hurting me...well, I know why it's hurting me and I've already said it a million times--I feel personally wronged even though I really shouldn't. Hey, I can't help how I feel and that's mainly because I don't have an explanation yet. So, I got up out of bed at about 3:30 or 3:45 and just went into another room because I was tossing and turning and I didn't want to wake up Kyle since he only had about an hour left of sleep. Turns out that he couldn't go back to sleep either because he had just woke up too. We were both up at 4am. Wow. At least it gave him some leisure time to read the newspaper and have several cups of coffee! :)
Well, I didn't make it a pleasant morning though because I was griping about my dream and the reason why I might've had the dream. I told him that I guess this goes to show don't get too comfortable at a school--you never know what might happen. I was REALLY comfortable at this school and had made some good teacher friends in the process--everyone kept asking me over the summer, "are you coming back to us? Are you working at Garfield again?" They all were so genuinely interested in what I was going to do for the following school year. I felt like I was really liked and wanted for the first time since moving out here. And I still am, but I don't feel very accepted by the principal right now. And that's sad because when I was first hired, I felt so good with him being there because he reminded me of my uncle Dan. Same voice, same height, same kind of look. Now how does he look to me? I dunno. I got emotional this morning and I didn't really mean to. As much as I hate to say it, I think it's hormone-induced (aka a little PMS-y). I think I might either need to change the birth control prescription (because this has been happening for awhile at about the same time every month) or get a life, one. Hahaha. Okay, too many feminine problems for the possible male readers out there--sorry! I'm just trying to sort out my feelings because last night wasn't easy either. I was not too nice to Kyle (unintentionally) and the feelings he had last night kind of carried over into this morning. It's all good now though so no worries. :)
Ugh...I will get over this, I promise and then ya'll won't have to hear it anymore. Cross my heart. I want to know the reason and I'm too chicken (plus it's probably weird) to call someone that might know the reason why I never got called. I just need to start working and get my mind busy. That's probably the biggest issue and why I'm having all these issues. Too much time to think. Once school starts up and I start my classes at BSU, it'll all just kind of disappear, I'm sure. There...I'm done. Thanks so much for hearing me out (if you got this far).
Well, I didn't make it a pleasant morning though because I was griping about my dream and the reason why I might've had the dream. I told him that I guess this goes to show don't get too comfortable at a school--you never know what might happen. I was REALLY comfortable at this school and had made some good teacher friends in the process--everyone kept asking me over the summer, "are you coming back to us? Are you working at Garfield again?" They all were so genuinely interested in what I was going to do for the following school year. I felt like I was really liked and wanted for the first time since moving out here. And I still am, but I don't feel very accepted by the principal right now. And that's sad because when I was first hired, I felt so good with him being there because he reminded me of my uncle Dan. Same voice, same height, same kind of look. Now how does he look to me? I dunno. I got emotional this morning and I didn't really mean to. As much as I hate to say it, I think it's hormone-induced (aka a little PMS-y). I think I might either need to change the birth control prescription (because this has been happening for awhile at about the same time every month) or get a life, one. Hahaha. Okay, too many feminine problems for the possible male readers out there--sorry! I'm just trying to sort out my feelings because last night wasn't easy either. I was not too nice to Kyle (unintentionally) and the feelings he had last night kind of carried over into this morning. It's all good now though so no worries. :)
Ugh...I will get over this, I promise and then ya'll won't have to hear it anymore. Cross my heart. I want to know the reason and I'm too chicken (plus it's probably weird) to call someone that might know the reason why I never got called. I just need to start working and get my mind busy. That's probably the biggest issue and why I'm having all these issues. Too much time to think. Once school starts up and I start my classes at BSU, it'll all just kind of disappear, I'm sure. There...I'm done. Thanks so much for hearing me out (if you got this far).
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
What's for dinner, woman?
I'm cooking lasagna right now...mmmmm...I tried to make it exactly Core but for some reason, I couldn't find fat-free mozzarella cheese--does such a thing exist? I found reduced fat mozzarella but no fat-free...oh well, close enough! Everything else is Core so maybe a little cheese won't hurt me.
I'm in full swing of the training for the half-marathon. How's it goin', you ask? Well, it's....going good. I'm staying on track with all my requirements and I'm feeling more muscular in the leg region and I'm noticing less bulge in the belly! Oh and as of now, it's just an army of one. Kyle didn't feel like he could commit to the training because of work schedule, which is true--I don't want to exhaust him.
The only problem is that I have to keep eating! hahaha...I get hungry so much! I even get hungry right before bed and let me tell ya, that's really annoying! If I don't fall asleep before it gets too bad, I have to get up and go eat a little something before going to sleep. Kyle thinks it's crazy that I get hungry so often but I don't want to starve myself! That's not good for someone who's trying to run a lot. I don't like the feeling of blacking out while running! I've had little spells like that before (not so much blacking out completely but having the feeling of heaviness in my head and just the bare beginnings of darkness). So, when that happens I stop and go get some water and I usually call it a day until I feel better the next time. That's why I went on Core so that I could eat as much fruit and veggies as needed and lean meats and snacks like 94% fat free popcorn or sugar-free/fat-free pudding--a lifesaver! So it's going good so far. There are times when I'm running on the treadmill and it feels useless and I feel like stopping but now I can't since I've paid my money AND it's helping me get into shape quicker than I could ever imagine! :)
I'm in full swing of the training for the half-marathon. How's it goin', you ask? Well, it's....going good. I'm staying on track with all my requirements and I'm feeling more muscular in the leg region and I'm noticing less bulge in the belly! Oh and as of now, it's just an army of one. Kyle didn't feel like he could commit to the training because of work schedule, which is true--I don't want to exhaust him.
The only problem is that I have to keep eating! hahaha...I get hungry so much! I even get hungry right before bed and let me tell ya, that's really annoying! If I don't fall asleep before it gets too bad, I have to get up and go eat a little something before going to sleep. Kyle thinks it's crazy that I get hungry so often but I don't want to starve myself! That's not good for someone who's trying to run a lot. I don't like the feeling of blacking out while running! I've had little spells like that before (not so much blacking out completely but having the feeling of heaviness in my head and just the bare beginnings of darkness). So, when that happens I stop and go get some water and I usually call it a day until I feel better the next time. That's why I went on Core so that I could eat as much fruit and veggies as needed and lean meats and snacks like 94% fat free popcorn or sugar-free/fat-free pudding--a lifesaver! So it's going good so far. There are times when I'm running on the treadmill and it feels useless and I feel like stopping but now I can't since I've paid my money AND it's helping me get into shape quicker than I could ever imagine! :)
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
The Trip to Twin Falls (continued)
This past Saturday, I went with my friend, Maren and her fiance, Stephen, to Twin Falls in order to go to the new Temple that they built there and they were having an open house. That's the only way people who don't have Temple recommends or non LDS people can go in is when there's an open house. It was a great trip! We three rode together and listened to music on the way. We pulled into the parking lot of the Temple and there was only 1 person who was protesting the existence of Mormonism. There had to be hundreds of people there and only 1 of him yelling at the top of his lungs how Mormonism isn't Christian. To me, it's not Christian to be standing on the corner condemning another religion (no matter what it is)! Anyway, we took some group pictures outside the chapel while we waited for our group to be brought into the chapel in preparation for the tour. Our group was finally able to go in and so we were led into the chapel to sit and listen to some pretty piano music while we waited. That time was spent just visiting some more with people. After about 30-40ish minutes, we were able to be taken to a video presentation room.
The video just basically told us about the history of how Mormon pioneers came out west after much persecution. They also explained how calm and serene the different rooms in the temple are and how close one can come to God. Married couples are sealed for eternity as well as children are sealed to the parents for eternity. They believe that once people die, they shouldn't be taken away from each other once they die. This kind of got me thinking: What if a young couple gets married (say about mid 20s) and then an accident happens and one dies and untimely death--is the other allowed to marry again since they are sealed for eternity? Also, what if the marriage ends up being an abusive relationship like with physical and/or verbal abuse--does one have to stick with that partner even though their marriage is deteriorating? Those are some questions I have that I should ask Maren...she's more than happy to answer questions that I might have. Anyway, we finally got to go into the temple and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! There were paintings and murals all over the walls in each hallway and each room. There are 2 Endowment rooms that are considered the education rooms where they come in and learn about their purpose here on Earth and their mission in life in one and that first room has a HUGE mural all over the wall that depicts the Magic Valley area with nature all around and animals and whatnot. The second Endowment room is more lit up with more light and the walls are rather a pure white to signify more knowledge and enlightenment. Maren told me while we were in there that she greatly appreciated having me there--a friend to share this experience with! The next room that we went into required us not to talk at all because it was the Celestial room where people come to meditate and reflect on their life and their mission here on Earth. We walked in and the first thing I noticed was the gigantuan chandelier! It was so gorgeous! The whole room was a mixture of white and ivory and cream colors to represent Heaven. It was the best room ever!
Oh and I forgot to tell you about the dressing rooms--I know, you're thinking, "why dressing rooms?" Well, when Mormons come into the temple, they go into these dressing rooms and take off their "street clothes" and change into white dresses for the women or suits for the men to make them pure and clean from the outside world and all its troubles. All Mormons must wear Temple underwear (like white undershirts and stuff). It's really different but it's so interesting to me to learn about different religions! It was just really refreshing to learn about something that I had never really been exposed to. I definitely think it was an extremely worthwhile trip! On the way back I asked some of my questions such as why they can't drink coke and coffee. They actually can drink coke but only if they don't go to Temple regularly or something like that. But none of them seem to drink coffee at all. They can drink herbal tea but not regular tea--which I thought that all tea was herbal, but oh well. I felt really comfortable with Maren and Stephen on Saturday because I knew that they wouldn't push anything on me but would be willing to answer any questions that I had.
The video just basically told us about the history of how Mormon pioneers came out west after much persecution. They also explained how calm and serene the different rooms in the temple are and how close one can come to God. Married couples are sealed for eternity as well as children are sealed to the parents for eternity. They believe that once people die, they shouldn't be taken away from each other once they die. This kind of got me thinking: What if a young couple gets married (say about mid 20s) and then an accident happens and one dies and untimely death--is the other allowed to marry again since they are sealed for eternity? Also, what if the marriage ends up being an abusive relationship like with physical and/or verbal abuse--does one have to stick with that partner even though their marriage is deteriorating? Those are some questions I have that I should ask Maren...she's more than happy to answer questions that I might have. Anyway, we finally got to go into the temple and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! There were paintings and murals all over the walls in each hallway and each room. There are 2 Endowment rooms that are considered the education rooms where they come in and learn about their purpose here on Earth and their mission in life in one and that first room has a HUGE mural all over the wall that depicts the Magic Valley area with nature all around and animals and whatnot. The second Endowment room is more lit up with more light and the walls are rather a pure white to signify more knowledge and enlightenment. Maren told me while we were in there that she greatly appreciated having me there--a friend to share this experience with! The next room that we went into required us not to talk at all because it was the Celestial room where people come to meditate and reflect on their life and their mission here on Earth. We walked in and the first thing I noticed was the gigantuan chandelier! It was so gorgeous! The whole room was a mixture of white and ivory and cream colors to represent Heaven. It was the best room ever!
Oh and I forgot to tell you about the dressing rooms--I know, you're thinking, "why dressing rooms?" Well, when Mormons come into the temple, they go into these dressing rooms and take off their "street clothes" and change into white dresses for the women or suits for the men to make them pure and clean from the outside world and all its troubles. All Mormons must wear Temple underwear (like white undershirts and stuff). It's really different but it's so interesting to me to learn about different religions! It was just really refreshing to learn about something that I had never really been exposed to. I definitely think it was an extremely worthwhile trip! On the way back I asked some of my questions such as why they can't drink coke and coffee. They actually can drink coke but only if they don't go to Temple regularly or something like that. But none of them seem to drink coffee at all. They can drink herbal tea but not regular tea--which I thought that all tea was herbal, but oh well. I felt really comfortable with Maren and Stephen on Saturday because I knew that they wouldn't push anything on me but would be willing to answer any questions that I had.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
My Trip to the Twin Falls LDS Temple Open House
We just got to the Temple in Twin Falls and we weren't allowed to take cameras inside so we had to take pictures outside.
Cool sky with the Temple in the distance--kinda ominous, huh?
Stephen and Maren--the lovebirds who are going to be married on 8-08-08. I don't think I have a picture of them NOT kissing... hehehe..
Beautiful sky and such a crisp, white Temple to contrast. The statue on top of the spire is their angel, Moroni.I will write a longer story later, I just wanted to let you get a glimpse of what an LDS Temple actually looks like!
It's official...
I've paid my City of Trees half-marathon registration money so there's no backing out now!
Friday, August 1, 2008
Yikes
I ran about 4 miles this morning (some of it was fast-paced walking, mostly running). Maybe I didn't drink enough water during the course of the exercising but after I got home, I didn't feel too well. A little queasy. But no big deal, I better after I ate something after my weigh-in. Now, don't get me wrong, I ate cereal before I went so it's not like I didn't eat anything at all before running. It was fun though. I didn't feel too uncomfortable--it wasn't too hard to keep going on the treadmill. I felt accomplished--too bad it was only half of what the training program wanted but fortunately, I was a day early in the training program. The schedule wants me to run 8.5 miles at an easy pace (which is about 12-12:30 min/mile and that's a pretty relaxed pace) with 2 minute breaks every 12 minutes but I figured I didn't need a break every single mile. It's already gonna take me over an hour to run the 8.5 miles with that pace, I didn't want to extend it anymore. But I guess I should follow the instructions so I don't hurt myself, right? The schedule says I should've done that tomorrow--I just wanted to practice. I'll do it tomorrow and try to go the whole way.
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